Our lives have been on a roller coaster for oh so many
years. We have had the ups and the downs and when it really got wild we had the
upside-down loops that made our heads spin. Every day has its surprises and we
are never bored with what comes up.
I shared before that my mother has been diagnosed with bone
cancer. The agony my heart has felt over the thought of losing my mom has been
torture. Every two months she has a test and every two months we have heard
disappointing news despite bone strengthening treatments and daily oral chemo.
We heard: the cancer has grown, they found another cancer site or on awful days
we heard both. Our hope for good news was fading but I was reminded that “a
certain darkness is needed to see the stars.” I am not going to lie; we were
beaten down as we sat in the conference room at the cancer center waiting for
Mom’s results this last month. As the results were read our jaws dropped. For
the first time in over a year we were hearing good news in the fight against
cancer. Mom’s cancer had stopped growing and there were no new cancer sites
anywhere in her body. What a relief! We are safe for two months until the next
scan. I am thrilled about this news but I am also very aware of the threat
cancer still has on her life.
Lately, I have been feeling stuck; stuck emotionally between
the most incredible experience in my life and between the heartache and fear
that I feel for my family. On one hand my heart hurts and on the other hand I
have so much to be joyful about. What joy? Let me share my amazing news!
Kirk and I are pregnant! After three years of waiting we are
expecting our miracle baby! It was quite the road to make this pregnancy happen
but oh was it worth it. Between the fertility costs and the hormones I was
taking, tensions were high, but my husband survived like a champ…let’s see if
he survives the first few months of caring for a newborn! Many times I find
myself smiling simply because my fairy tale is coming true. Our baby girl, Yes!
I said girl, is due in November and as she grows I find more and more to thank
God for. I also want to thank all of you who have supported us through prayers
and donations for fertility treatments. Without your help our growing family
would not be possible.
Our roller coaster that we call life never ceases to shock
and amaze, but even with all the twists and turns we always know “where God
guides, He provides”. I for one am forever grateful for His trials and
provisions. For every setback and disappointment God has blessed us tenfold.
“Let your past make you better, not bitter.”
Love Always,
Sarah
